So, I generally don't make things like this because, I don't know, I just feel bad; but I am opening up commissions. I know my commissions are basically always open but no one really asks//smacked.
It's just, I can't seem to find a job and my mom's is basically worthless for pay. She don't even make minimum wage :/
She can't afford the bills we have, and she has 3 kids to support (Me included though I'm not a child.) Not only that, My older brother and his woman and child also live with us, and not be be mean, but they don't help out much. I mean yes they buy their own food, but other than that, they haven't helped with bills. Only 2, maybe 3 times and they've been there for 5+ months already. We are now in fear of losing our house. Now, I'm not so much worried about me because I have places I can go, but my two younger sibling and my mother, ...ehh, I'm just worried.
Since I can't find a job to save my life, more so because of my fucking social anxiety (I can't go anywhere alone because I go into anxiety attacks..just bluh), if I can help out in any way I can to help my mom whose supported me for the past 3, almost 4 years,; for nothing, I want to.
I just, ugh, I really hate spouting personal shit like this because I'm always afraid people will mock me or attack me for 'asking for a handout' or something like that, and I can't deal with the stress :<
I just want to help my mom and my family. I was originally taking commissions so I could get money for myself, but just. I can't sit by and do nothing.
SO if you're interested in a commission or know anyone who is, it'll be a huge help.
Or if you could possibly pass the word along and tell people I have commissions open; it would be greatly appreciated!
I'm sorry for doing this...
I don't want to seem like I'm begging, I'm not, I'm just so sick of feeling useless when there's at least this I can try.
I've already felt like a complete mooch for the past three years and ungrateful because I'm 21 and still live with my mom; because I honestly just can't live alone. I can't do it. I'm weak and pretty much useless. My anxiety and paranoia are too much for me. The reason I haven't moved with a friend is because I'd feel even worse not being able to help with rent or anything....
Here's my commission sheet:
Please note that I won't be able to start on any commissions until after the holidays, since I'm getting a new tablet; that now I kind of feel bad for asking for :/
Sigh, if you've read through all of this, thank you so much for your time.